me before you 

Posted: December 7, 2017 in Uncategorized

War’s Won.

Posted: December 6, 2017 in Uncategorized

Get out of your bed, stick up your head
Fight your batttles, get out of your shackles.
Step up your game, find your flame.

Worth it?

Posted: January 31, 2016 in Life, Sad, Teenagers

After everything we’ve been through, we’ve always come out stronger but how long can one last till they finally snap and realise they’ve had enough? Even then,even after realising that they could get much better the real question is do they want much better?
It’s almost like checking the pros and cons.
You love them but they piss the hell out of you. You want them 24/7 but you also want to smack their face. The endless cycle of the same old fights,for how long will it continue?
Aren’t you tired of it by now?
Does this tie you down?
How do you feel when you realise that love is not enough?
What do you do when you’ve given up all your dreams for that one person and you get absolutely nothing in return? What do you do when they can’t handle you at your worst and instead of consoling you all they do is stir up another fight.
How much longer will you forgive them for their every mistake just because you want them in your life? Just because you’re not ready to let go.
Fights,fights day and night.
The same old question nags at the back of your mind,is this worth it?
Do you still want the same old love?
Do you wanna stay or walk away?

My person.

Posted: October 19, 2015 in Happy, Life, Society, Teenagers
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It’s funny how you meet hundreds of people everyday and nobody really matters much but then you meet this one person and you know that they have power to make or break you.
You’re not the same anymore,you never will be.
Suddenly everything has changed.
This person has got the potential to ruin you. This person could lift you off your feet and keep on taking you higher than what your Jack Daniels could.
You could be 10,best friends and knowing you never want to let this person go. You could be 17,madly unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him. You could be 35, just had a divorce and maybe your soul is about to find its missing piece in the person standing besides you. You could be 65,smoking your cigar in central park,watching that lively woman play with her grandchildren and suddenly life doesn’t look dull anymore,all you want to do is hold that person in your arms. Hug them,never let them go. You’re gonna feel content,satisfied.
Youll want to climb the tallest mountain and jump out of running trains(hoping youll survive). Youll want to do anything and everything that makes them happy. You’ll want to explore the entire universe with them. You’re also going to have 2 AM arguments. Harsh words will be exchanged. Youll want to strangle them for driving you crazy but then you’ll realise this is the same person you met and felt your world shift. You’ll realise that no matter what happens, they are worth it. They are worth every argument,every fight. You’ll never want to leave them. Youll want so much more from life. Youll be in love,my friend.
And after all this?
You’ll know that no matter what happens, no matter if you’ll will go on forever and ever or end within a day,you’ll know that you’ll never want to forget them because they did what no one could ever do.
They taught you how to live and not just merely exist.

Look in the mirror,
Stare at what you see for a long time.
What was it?
A broken person?
Someone who has been thrown down too many times?
Who has been told many lies?
Who can’t handle anymore ties?
Now look at me,
I’ll tell you about the enigma I see.
You my friend,have the stars in your eyes.
Filled with supernovas,twinkling and lighting up the sky.
You my friend,have rivers glowing in your nerves,don’t you dare try and drain them dry.
You my friend,have billions of galaxies roaming in your mind,
Expanding and creating things,too small for the human to abide by.
You my friend,have the thunder in your voice.
Take a stand, rise up and fly till you reach cloud nine.
Unbending and making your own path even after being beating down,you’re stronger than the mightiest mountain.
Waltzing away with no care in the world,you’ve come so far.
No matter how much you try to hide,how can I escape this beauty in front of me?
You’re infinite,nobody can capture you.
You my friend, are the universe.

Phoenix

Posted: June 29, 2015 in Life, Society, Teenagers

There was a time when I loved swimming
I loved the way it made me feel
I was a good swimmer
In fact I was certain that I would or could never drown
But,
Look at me now
I’m drowning
I’m struggling
I’m lost in every direction of life

What have I come to?
There was a time when I used to be so much fun
I used to love going out and now?
I just want to spend my time locked in my room
Listen to music so loud that I can’t feel a thing
I want to be numb

I want to run away
I dont ever want to come back to this place again
I want a fresh start
I want to forget every bad thing that has  happened to me

I am locked in a haze
I need something
I need someone to tell me its all worth it
That life is a struggle and youll make it big
I want someone to ignite a fire that will never get extinguished

And I needed this someone so bad that I became this someone
I am my own armour
I am my own anchor
I am what I am

I am the phoenix that rises again from its ash time and again
I am the fire I needed
I needed a hero
So that’s what I became

I am me
And I think that’s all I ever need to be.

I love you

Posted: May 25, 2015 in Happy
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So I don’t even think most people will read this,I mean this isn’t one of those regular posts,its more like all the things I’ve wanted to say to someone.
Here goes nothing.

Hiii,see I know you’re probably reading this and youll figure that its for you but I had to tell you this,
Thank you,
Thank you for standing with me,thank for standing up for me,thank you for everything you’ve done for me.
You’re so genuine,nice and kind,its sort of crazy,like hello its supposed to be illegal to be a complete package.
You’ve given me the best advise,supported me through everything I’ve done even when you didn’t approve it.
You’ve stood by me even when I’ve acted like a psycho bitch and not even once got frustrated with me.
You’ve literally seen me at my ugliest and still loved me,even though I’ve become a hippo,you won’t call me fat,you’re family to me and I dont say this often and you dont get  enough credit for the things that you do,you’re so gullible its not even funny,I’m so bloody lucky to have you in my life,no one,I mean it, no one can ever take your place not in this lifetime not in the next infinite nor in any of the parallel universes,you’re my lifeline and mean the world to me.
Apart from my family its you>everyone.
I love you sooooo muchhh
Till death do us apart
Happy Birthday Best Friend.
You’re my numberr one

To all those who thought this is some sappy lovesick message to my non existent boyfriend or crush,no it’s not,its my best friend’s birthday and omgggg I’m so happy,he’s turning 17
Asdfghjklll🙊🙊
Ok sorry,bye.
Have a lovely day cuties,much love xx

Hiii,I’m sorry I haven’t posted in a while🙊
Anyway this one is basically a shout out to all those students out there who have to choose their career or well technically have their career handed over to them whether its their parents or relatives or whosoever.
Here you go guys,remember

“Do what you love,love what you do”

There’s always this dark gloomy cloud hanging above your head at sixteen which continues to grow darker and wilder.
Thunders and lightens. Fills up every pore till it finally starts to sink,drown in its own whirlpool of droplets. Etching its mark across the sky.
Finally,at last once it’s had enough and can’t stand more,it bursts apart.
And when it does ,you realise that you’re crying,these droplets are nothing but tears etched on your face.
Eventually youll realise that you’re lost and you don’t want to do this
Youll finally have the courage to take up your own path.
Youll find something that you love and would want to do that everyday.
Youll have a new beginning,
You’ll finally have your own life
And above everything,you’re stronger than this.

I woke up, breathless.
Forehead smothered with sweat.
It was so real,I could feel everything.
Blood pulsing through my veins,my heart beating faster than a humming bird.
I knew this was not real but I couldn’t seem to escape.
No matter what I did,I kept failing.
This wasn’t how dreams were supposed to be.
Its been almost three months now.
They never seem to go back.
I’ve done everything I can,
But somehow their necks always end up cracked.
I keep seeing the same again and again,
I want to stop it but god help me, I can’t.
There has to be a way,
I can’t do this every time.
Watch them die every night
Only to see them born again.
I’ve heard stories about lucid dreams,
And the horrendous paralysis while asleep.
How am I supposed to run from them?
When they run within me,deep.

Hold on

Posted: May 19, 2015 in Uncategorized

This needs to be shared like countless times.